Friday, January 8, 2010
Fear and Foster Care
I just spoke with the founder of the adoption agency with which I am licensed. I explained to her that due to the nature of our *lives*, we are only able to provide foster care to children aged 3-5. We are actually licensed for care up to age 17. I have this enormous measure of guilt because I feel like I am letting everyone down. I realize that my age constraints limit my "sphere" drastically, as there are many more older children in foster care than younger and I ?imagine? that I can hear the disappointment in her voice as I explain our situation. Not only do I really respect this lady and wish for her approval (revealing how shallow I am!) but more importantly I feel horrible for the older children that don't have homes. But really-- can I handle an older child *practically* on my own? Honestly, my fear is that I can't even handle a preschooler! Hope beckons me to step out, while fear arrests my foot in mid-air. Is there any other choice but to jump and pray I land on both feet?